update
it has been a long time since i blogged, at least sth about myself.
bz bz, been out almost everyday for the past 3 weeks? actually it's everyday.. ok obviously i will be out everyday since i am working. but ok i mean more of like even after work daily, there are meetings and other stuff. I will say it's not easy to juggle it all, especially when my work dun end at work, cos there are things to finish at home, esp all the "processing" of results and data, by the time I finish my experiments, it's late so either I stay back to finish or bring home to do.
and the fri meetings means have to arrange everything and well it's quite a lot. As a result, for the past 3 weeks, I have been slping at 2-3+ and waking up at 6+ so I can finish the slides. But well I'm not complaining, it's not that a thing; despite slping less, I feel I am more awake and energised. And things at work are improving ( I feel), from being scolded for showing effort in work last time, to now, ok I am not praised as yet, but I see results in my work and my boss is happy during the meetings, so things are going smoothly.
Well isn't this just about human revolution in Buddhism? How an internal transformation in one person (in myself) can change things around. It all start from the self; I can blame others, I can blame my job, I can quit but well things wun change if I dun change and improve and ur karma will follow you around. And probably what I always want to do, to show actual proof in work is probably what keep me going. It's nv about escaping..
But I will say, there is still a long way to go, though things are better now, but the constant "stress" is still there. All I can say, is to constantly elevate my life condition to battle my weaknesses. Just do it
bz bz, been out almost everyday for the past 3 weeks? actually it's everyday.. ok obviously i will be out everyday since i am working. but ok i mean more of like even after work daily, there are meetings and other stuff. I will say it's not easy to juggle it all, especially when my work dun end at work, cos there are things to finish at home, esp all the "processing" of results and data, by the time I finish my experiments, it's late so either I stay back to finish or bring home to do.
and the fri meetings means have to arrange everything and well it's quite a lot. As a result, for the past 3 weeks, I have been slping at 2-3+ and waking up at 6+ so I can finish the slides. But well I'm not complaining, it's not that a thing; despite slping less, I feel I am more awake and energised. And things at work are improving ( I feel), from being scolded for showing effort in work last time, to now, ok I am not praised as yet, but I see results in my work and my boss is happy during the meetings, so things are going smoothly.
Well isn't this just about human revolution in Buddhism? How an internal transformation in one person (in myself) can change things around. It all start from the self; I can blame others, I can blame my job, I can quit but well things wun change if I dun change and improve and ur karma will follow you around. And probably what I always want to do, to show actual proof in work is probably what keep me going. It's nv about escaping..
But I will say, there is still a long way to go, though things are better now, but the constant "stress" is still there. All I can say, is to constantly elevate my life condition to battle my weaknesses. Just do it
posted by yuan @ 1:12 AM
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